Wednesday, January 9, 2013

2013...

Well. New Year. New start.
I guess my new start wasn't how I had planned.
I can say that 2013 has been hell...
and we're only 9 days in.
 
On January 1st at 8:00pm  I was smelling smoke bad in my apartment.  Not Cigarette smoke, it was a little off.  Knowing that my neighbors are bad smokers and constantly lied about not smoking in the house, I called my property manager, like I did to complain about the smoke about once a week.  They weren't supposed to smoke in the house or near the house.  I complained, and said I was very concerned.  My apartment was hazey and the upstairs neighbors had all of their windows covered in cardboard boxes.  The property manager called to talk to them, and they informed her that they were out of town, and their friends were staying there and watching their house (she forgot to say they just got out of prison a few days ago).  When I asked the property manager to go and investigate herself she refused.
 
On January 2nd and 4:30am (a few hours before the smoke incident) I was woken up to a very loud sound, like a gunshot, or breaking down a door.  That was followed by the most blood curdling screams I have ever heard.  This was all happening above my head, while I'm in my basement apartment.  I could hear people running back and forth screaming.  I was petrified.  I live alone, and I'm a girl. I quickly grabbed my phone and dialed 911.  As soon as I could hear people not on the same side of the house as my door I grabbed my pillow and snuck out to my car. I went to my parents house and decided I would stay there for a few days.  Later that day around 3:30 pm I had a phone call from one of my neighbors grand-daughters who is in my ward.  She said that her grandmother say 3 people get arrested that morning after drug dogs were taken through the house....

I stayed at my moms the next night and Thursday night I decided to brave my apartment.
 
I spoke to my landlord and decided I would move.  But after he told me that they had been evicted, I decided to stay upon condition of who lived upstairs...Well. I should have moved. I wanted to move but the idea of moving stressed me out.  Well Friday I decided to visit friends out of town.  I left Friday night at about 8:30pm and came home at 10:00pm on Saturday.

I walked in noticed the smell of smoke was way worse than usual.
I looked in my living room and noticed things weren't were I left them.
Then I noticed the TV was gone, and then my laptop, my camera, my stereos, and the piano keyboard my grandparents gave me.  Then I looked up past my living room and saw my room.  It was completely turned upside down.  Clothes were everywhere.  Then I realized that my dresser was empty.  None of the clothes in the dresser were in my room.  My snow boots were gone, my riding boots, my new asics I bought for the gym... all gone.  I had emptied out my car that day and brought in some bags of scrap fabric from my pillows... and they took those too.  I had ordered a pair of boots online with my birthday money, and they were delivered Saturday. I found the amazon box in the dumpster.  I never even got to see the boots in person before they were stolen.  I immediately called the police and reported a theft.  I then called my parents.  They raced over.  The police showed up.  There were two officers which I found odd (one with a waxed mustache that I couldn't look away from).  I asked why there were two and they said that knowing who they were dealing with upstairs, they would need back.  great. They took my name and information down, asked what was missing and walked through my apartment. Took pictures and asked lots of questions.  I told them how the people upstairs were constantly asking me for things, or to borrow things, and always asking if they could have some of my hand me down clothes.  The police discovered that they broke in through the laundry room door by pulling the pins out, but couldn't get fingerprints off of the door.  I gave them the serial numbers for things missing (the numbers I have) and then they informed me that they had been watching the upstairs for a few weeks now because they were drug dealers.  They were very big druggies. And the police told me that I needed to move so they couldn't find me.  They then went to go upstairs and speak with them.  They didn't answer the door.  Why would they?!  And that's where it ends. They did nothing else.  I'll never see my stuff again, and I'm out lots of money.  I can't replace everything, it's either replace or go to new york in june... and I've already bought the plane tickets.

I understand stealing electronics and things of value. 
But, my clothes?
That's so personal, and so frustrating.
I feel extremely violated.
I hope they enjoyed shopping in my house.
I guess if you need it more than me, I'm glad you have it.


I found a new apartment. 
It's more expensive but I feel more safe there.
New apartment, new clothes, new tv, new year.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Thoughts and Prayers..

My thoughts and prayers go out to all those across the nation and world who have lost loved ones due to these tragedies.  I'm not a parent, and I have no idea how scary it must be to hear that there was a shooting at the school your children attend.  But, I know how I feel about the children in the school district I work for, and how I feel about my little brothers, sisters, and my neice and nephew.  I love them so much and can not imagine the hurt of having them torn away from you in that fashion.  I can't read the news updates because I have the most gut wrenching feeling over come me when I do.  Tears instantly fill my eyes, and I am scared for what has happened to the world.  Those poor innocent children.  I know how panicked i was just to get a call saying I need to pick my brother up from school because he was sick, but i can't imagine the feeling I'd have had if it was his kindergarten class that was attacked. 
 
I love my family.
 
 
 
I pray that we keep those families who lost loved ones in our thoughts and prayers.
They need the comfort.
But, the poor children who were in that school and lived need our prayers as well.
It kills me to imagine how scared they must have been.

November/December pictures

Someone found my Rapunzel wig.. and sunglasses.

Shawn perfecting the duck face



what stress looks like

trying to be cool

Mint

Coolest cupcake. ever.

love the back of this dress.. and love what this picture got me later that night.

more days of work until christmas vacation
making soup

outfit. :)

so excited about my new dress

professional

wedding reception

whitney is not impressed

good workout=drenched shirt




letting my hair do its own thing.

hot tub hair and no makeup
best dress ever

how the Talbot's do family get togethers.

why is she touching me?

my "I'll be home for christmas" tree

should i shave? no.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

All I want for Christmas is...

A wrap around bracelet watch.
 
 


A pair of red shoes, just like my black ones.
 
 

A black below the knee pencil skirt
 
 

I know its not really the right season, but a high waisted bikini
 
 

A simple black blazer  purchased :) at goodwill $6
 
 

above the knee brown boots
This sweater.  Love with my whole heart.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Destined

Destined.
To remain in the friend zone.
 :)
 
I'm pretty positive that I rock the friend zone like no body's business.
 
I have struggled with this for a while.
I wasn't sure why I get shoved in this corner..
 
So today I went digging.
I read a blog and got these things
 
Don't be a pushover
Learn to Flirt
Embrace Femininity
Be Patient in the Pursuit
Don't be Afraid of Rejection
 
How frustrating are all of those things?!
I feel like I do them.
 
 
I stand up for myself.
I flirt, a lot.
I'm a girl who enjoys being a girl
I try my hardest to be patient (could use work)
And I realize that if they reject me, it's their loss.
 
But yet, the friend zone is where I sit.
 
In high school I was sure I'd be one of the first in my group of friends to tie the knot.
I'm definitely the last as of this weekend.
Some have kids, are going on third anniversaries... and I'm like "hey, i get the whole bed to myself"
 
Despite all of these, I'm grateful for the challenge.
 
I'm learning to love myself.  I need to work on this a lot. 
But I'm grateful this was placed before me.
 
 
 

Friday, November 30, 2012

Another opening, another show!

 
Opening night for Miracle on 34th Street!!
 
Nervous, due to the lack of voice.
But it will work out.  I've been quiet all day!
And for me, that's sayin somethin!!
I'm so excited to be Doris, and have a cute little girl playin my daughter.
Wish us luck!!
And pray we just break a leg and not break our legs!





 

Monday, November 26, 2012

23.



23.
That feels weird.

Happy Birthday to me yesterday!!
 
But, every year this day still makes me reflect.
I remeber exactly where I was five years ago.
I was in seminary, my senior year.
I was asked to tell everyone where I wanted to be in five years.
I remember saying the following.
 
1.Be a Cosmetologist
2. Have served a mission
3. Happily Married
4. Not be in Pocatello
 
Well. I came to a big realization,
my life, has in no way gone how I intended it.
I haven't done a single on of those.
 
I can say that in those five years I've...
 
1. Haven't gone to school.
Worked and worked and worked.
2. Didn't serve a mission.
3. Not even close to being married.
4. still in pocatello.


But I am grateful for what I have done. 
I have moved out of Poky for a few months, and was paid to sing and act.
I started doing theater and love it.
I have moved many times, and gotten to know some amazing people.
My hair is long :)
and much more.

I'm so grateful I made it to the big 23!

Here's to a great year.  I can feel it!