Thoughts and Prayers..

My thoughts and prayers go out to all those across the nation and world who have lost loved ones due to these tragedies.  I'm not a parent, and I have no idea how scary it must be to hear that there was a shooting at the school your children attend.  But, I know how I feel about the children in the school district I work for, and how I feel about my little brothers, sisters, and my neice and nephew.  I love them so much and can not imagine the hurt of having them torn away from you in that fashion.  I can't read the news updates because I have the most gut wrenching feeling over come me when I do.  Tears instantly fill my eyes, and I am scared for what has happened to the world.  Those poor innocent children.  I know how panicked i was just to get a call saying I need to pick my brother up from school because he was sick, but i can't imagine the feeling I'd have had if it was his kindergarten class that was attacked. 

 

I love my family.

 

 

 

I pray that we keep those families who lost loved ones in our thoughts and prayers.

They need the comfort.

But, the poor children who were in that school and lived need our prayers as well.

It kills me to imagine how scared they must have been.

November/December pictures

Someone found my Rapunzel wig.. and sunglasses.

Shawn perfecting the duck face



what stress looks like

trying to be cool

Mint

Coolest cupcake. ever.

love the back of this dress.. and love what this picture got me later that night.

more days of work until christmas vacation

making soup

outfit. :)

so excited about my new dress

professional

wedding reception

whitney is not impressed

good workout=drenched shirt



letting my hair do its own thing.

hot tub hair and no makeup

best dress ever

how the Talbot's do family get togethers.

why is she touching me?

my "I'll be home for christmas" tree

should i shave? no.

All I want for Christmas is...

A wrap around bracelet watch.

 

 



A pair of red shoes, just like my black ones.

 

 

A black below the knee pencil skirt

 

 

I know its not really the right season, but a high waisted bikini

 

 

A simple black blazer  purchased :) at goodwill $6

 

 

above the knee brown boots

This sweater.  Love with my whole heart.

Destined

Destined.

To remain in the friend zone.

 :)

 

I'm pretty positive that I rock the friend zone like no body's business.

 

I have struggled with this for a while.

I wasn't sure why I get shoved in this corner..

 

So today I went digging.

I read a blog and got these things

 

Don't be a pushover

Learn to Flirt

Embrace Femininity

Be Patient in the Pursuit

Don't be Afraid of Rejection

 

How frustrating are all of those things?!

I feel like I do them.

 

 

I stand up for myself.

I flirt, a lot.

I'm a girl who enjoys being a girl

I try my hardest to be patient (could use work)

And I realize that if they reject me, it's their loss.

 

But yet, the friend zone is where I sit.

 

In high school I was sure I'd be one of the first in my group of friends to tie the knot.

I'm definitely the last as of this weekend.

Some have kids, are going on third anniversaries... and I'm like "hey, i get the whole bed to myself"

 

Despite all of these, I'm grateful for the challenge.

 

I'm learning to love myself.  I need to work on this a lot. 

But I'm grateful this was placed before me.

 

 

 

Another opening, another show!

 

Opening night for Miracle on 34th Street!!

 

Nervous, due to the lack of voice.

But it will work out.  I've been quiet all day!

And for me, that's sayin somethin!!

I'm so excited to be Doris, and have a cute little girl playin my daughter.

Wish us luck!!

And pray we just break a leg and not break our legs!

 

23.

23.

That feels weird.

Happy Birthday to me yesterday!!
 

But, every year this day still makes me reflect.

I remeber exactly where I was five years ago.

I was in seminary, my senior year.

I was asked to tell everyone where I wanted to be in five years.

I remember saying the following.

 

1.Be a Cosmetologist

2. Have served a mission

3. Happily Married

4. Not be in Pocatello

 

Well. I came to a big realization,

my life, has in no way gone how I intended it.

I haven't done a single on of those.

 

I can say that in those five years I've...

 

1. Haven't gone to school.

Worked and worked and worked.

2. Didn't serve a mission.

3. Not even close to being married.

4. still in pocatello.


But I am grateful for what I have done. 
I have moved out of Poky for a few months, and was paid to sing and act.
I started doing theater and love it.
I have moved many times, and gotten to know some amazing people.
My hair is long :)
and much more.

I'm so grateful I made it to the big 23!

Here's to a great year.  I can feel it!

As of late...

I'm super pleased to say that I have dropped 16 pounds since August!

I've worked hard, but can work harder.

I still have a long way to go before I'm back to where I was a few years ago.

I'm so happy that I took a before and after picture!

It has upped my motivation by 100x!

I finally realized that I can change and I'm sticking to it!

 

Here is a picture of me before at 172 and after at 156.

My goal has always been to be around 140 but my body just hits a stand still at 150.

So I'll aim for 6 more pounds and then I will dedicate myself to muscle tone, and body fat %.

 

 

 

 

 

I find it funny that I stopped working out... I know how much I love it.

I thrive on challenging myself in this regard.

It's nice to see your hard work stare you down in the mirror.

But, this time I dont want to let it happen again.

 

I love that my clothes fit! 

It's nice to have buttons not popping :)

 

 

 

And on a side note.. because I've dropped a few pounds, I can now wear all my clothes!!

Which means my outfits have been rocking. 

 

So heres a few that I've come up with in the last 2 weeks.

 

 

Jean jacket: Walmart $5

Peach shirt: Walmart $7

Orange jeans: JC Penny $30

 

 

Blue Cardi: Ross $10

Black Shirt: Walmart $5

Straight Leg Jeans: American Eagle $30

Double Wrap Belt: Downeast $7

 

 

(Saturday night...loved mixing patterns)

RED Scarf: Walmart $5

Striped Shirt: TJ Maxx $12

Skinny Jeans: American Eagle $30

Black Suede Booties: Amazon $20

 

 

 

(and then I went to work monday morning and was lazy)

So I barely switched it up by adding a

Black Cardigan: Plato's Closet $10

Grey Pants: Maurices $20 (were flares..made them skinnies)

PINK scark: Walmart $5

Black Suede Booties

 

 

(i feel like i done popped out of the wrong time period)

Mauve Jacket: DI $5

Cream Shirt: Downeast $5

Wow... Apparently I get a lot of things on clearance at Walmart :)  oops.

Usually most of my pieces come from DI or Goodwill.

Apparently not this week.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving!

Enjoy your time with family and friends!